| | Wow. He came to see me. No, on the outside looking in, it’s not that big a deal…but it was to me. I mean, this little “friendship” we have going on is so one-sided in his favor. For instance, I always go to his place, he always eats my food when I bring some over, he always makes the first move [don’t know how favorable that one is, lol], etc. So naturally, when he told me he was in my town [yeah, we live in different towns, like 10 minutes apart], I was very excited. Thinking back on it today, I’m sitting here laughing at myself for fervently trying to clean my already-clean room some more, making sure my bathroom was extra spiffy, hiding weird stuff and pulling on interesting stuff. It was so cute :) But yeah, we chilled outside at first with one of my friends until he got cold and wanted to come inside. He ended up staying only like 10, 15 minutes because he rode with some people and didn’t wanna keep them waiting, but hell, I thought that was awesome enough. I told my home girl that Hell was gonna freeze over because he actually came. And it’s weird because she had been telling me that I need to stop saying “yes” to his invitations to come over and get him to come to my place. I mean, I really had no part in this; it’s not like I said, “Hey, you should come to my place instead of vice versa,” but I’ll take it how I can get it! LMAO. I really hope this “schoolgirl” crush I have on him subsides, because a) everything was smoother and more concise when we didn’t know we were “feeling” each other and b) I’m like a bubbly, giggly nutcase when it comes to him now, ugh! I hate that shit. But like I said in my previous entry, it’s not gonna progress past the “f*ck buddy” stage, sar [that’s “sorry” in lazy terms, lol]. Unless he makes strides to change some of his ways would be the only way I’d even consider it, but I don’t see that happening. For now, I’ll just bask in my lil’ crush mood. As you would know if you've read my previous entries, I just got out of a relationship in January. And although it's been four months, I don't really feel like [or ready to] jump into something with someone. We can chill, cuddle, do whatever, but I don't want a boyfriend. It's the summer, I just got out of college and all I really wanna do is have some fun!
**For clarification's sake: I know a couple entries ago, I mentioned something about a guy I was interested in, who was also interested in me. This is NOT the same guy as the f*ck buddy, lol. For those of you who actually do pay attention to my blog [which is probably just myself and God], had to straighten that out for you. But as for that guy I was interested in, yeah I nipped that in the bud a minute ago. He was gettin' weird on me.
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